Flawed Self Belief

Self belief and Arrogance
Is separated by a hazy line
But with my contorted lens
I felt I was doing just fine

I was proud of my humility
My ego made perfect sense
But when life taught me a lesson
Mask fell along with the pretense

My true love jolted me verbally
And it hurt my heart
When my soulmate walked out
It tore me completely apart

Not that my love had been sincere
Or my heart had given its very best
But when my spirit was broken
I wanted to play the victim with zest

Justifying being dumped
As an example of my sincerity
Being totally ignored
As an example of my lovability

Now I have found a mask
Which is a much better fit
With a bubble and a sheild
In case I once again get hit

My self belief is currently flawed
Arrogance has won the race
Inability to learn from mistakes
Is why I am stuck in this phase
°°°°°°°Jibrael Jos