Void Inside

There is a void inside
Which I just can't seem to fill
It is not that I lack joy
Or don't get my hearts thrill
Its not that I am alone
Or that I don't have free will
But just an emptiness
A numbness A restlessness
A dark tunnel in a cold hill

I did contemplate
Turning to a doctor
A psychiatrist or A priest
Turning to a drink
Drugs or a gastronomic feast
Turning to fitness
Good diet and a good read
Turning to service
Good habits and sowing seed

But I don't feel too good to go that extra mile
So I end up sleeping for that extra while
When I get up there is no change...
 There is a void inside
Which I just can't seem to fill
°°°°°°°°Jibrael Jos